beauty in the breakdown

for the past year or so i have been stuck in a rut (and didn't really know it)
this rut wasn't too rocky or rough, but i was in deep
it might have been easier to stay in it, but i decided i didn't like the view
getting out isn't easy, this is going to take some time

i question constantly that i made the right decision
that i am strong and brave enough
it requires a lot of dirty, hard work

the rut is slowly crumbling
my tears have helped to soften the hardened wall
and each day as i change a small part of me
i am able to overcome all that is holding me in

despite it all, i am exited to get back on my own path
change, though difficult is something i enjoy
i  do wish i had more of a plan in place
but i will say that i am learning to enjoy the journey
as i have no destination in mind

and i know there is beauty in the breakdown